Before the Season Ends

MERRY CHRISTMAS!

I know it's been a while since I last posted. When you're just almost a year away from graduation, thesis work surely will take up a LOT of your time.

I'll keep this short and sweet. :D

I hope everyone's having a blast today!

Love,

Me

the jlpt feel

JLPT is finally over.

After weeks, days, hours of (attempted) studying kanji, hundreds of vocabulary words and sentence patterns, I am thankful that it has finally culminated.

True, I was not totally confident about taking the N4 exam as I waited along the halls of De La Salle University. I did some sort of last-minute review but eventually gave up as the sea of people started to overwhelm me. Various voices filled my ears as I tried to distract myself from the anxiety and excitement.

I guess I'm a bit too tired to narrate in detail what happened. But the point is, I'm thankful for the opportunity. 'Twas a new set of experience. :D

crave

Perhaps it is simply human to be always wanting. The feeling of dissatisfaction would always come nagging from somewhere in the recesses of one's heart. A taste of something yearned for would not be enough -- you have to own it to quench that desire. It evokes all sorts of selfishness and self-gratification shunned yet secretly nurtured by society.

It's a craving that's almost clinical.

But who's sane enough to heal?

It's a craving that's almost criminal.

But who's not guilty enough to judge?

Warmth in Three

Hug.

It's that comforting warmth that wraps around you from another -- family, friend, lover.

But when you hold on to me a bit tighter, I'm not sure anymore.

I can feel your hesitation from the awkwardness of your limbs around me.

As I buried my face on your neck, I want to believe that you meant everything that you said.

Early Morning Dilemma

7:34 am

I came to school so early in the morning, planning to study for my Kanji test tomorrow so that later today, I will just have to focus on my Physics exam review.

But you see, my plan obviously failed.

Here I am, randomly typing away on my laptop. Goshhhhh, I am suffering from too much need for procrastination. :| Yet I know all too well that I am hanging by a thread in almost all of my majors! Accounting, Physics, Epidemiology -- gosh, please don't kill me! :((

As of the moment, I can feel the mix of caffeine overload flowing through my veins -- result of drinking cups of green tea last night and a big mug of coffee this morning. I'm so dead. But I try to minimize my dosage of such chemicals as I don't want to feel the weakening after-effect when the caffeine leaves my body. Honto ni yabai yo!

For now, I fill my ears with perky party music to keep me awake. I hope this works!

While Usher and his posse shouts out "OHHHHHHHHHHH" on the background, I will attempt to finally study my Kanji. 　がんばります!

(いやああああああああ!)

:((