Raining

When things go wrong, the first thing I ask my self is "Why?".

For some reason, I find solace in the possibility of figuring out what went wrong or if I can still do something to make things better (if not right). And I'm sure that its not just me.

Everybody's searching for answers and possibilities for different reasons.

I had been asking my self questions for quite some time now and I don't seem to find any answer. Yes, it helps ease the burden as I acknowledge the fact that I am indeed confused, scared and uncertain about certain things right. But still, the need for answers lingers. In the mean time, I can just bury thoughts and think of other things but no matter how I try, trivial things can't erase the unpleasant feelings.

In the end, I still remember.

The most difficult circumstances are the ones that involve other people. For me, it is very difficult not to consider the feelings of the people involved in the situation. I don't know, it's the way my mind and heart operates. My movements are limited because I don't want to rub in the hurt or pain people are feeling. And in order to do that, they ask for time.

I just can't say no.

As people often ask for time (meaning I have to keep my distance for awhile), I just agree even if saying yes simply breaks my heart. It hurts for I fear that they'll forget the reason thus, including the answers I'm looking for.

For now, I give you the time you're aasking for. But I need your assurance that when you have finally got a better grasp of things, you won't forget the answers I am waiting for.

Until then, I'll be here. Waiting

Minna no Kimochi

:)*originally posted at Seeing Blind Spot

Taken from Lea-chan :D The experience was super funny and relaxing. I really needed a good laugh these days.


RULES:
1. Put your MP3 player, iTunes, Windows Media Player, etc. on shuffle.
2. For each question, press the next button to get your answer.
3. YOU MUST WRITE THAT SONG NAME DOWN NO MATTER HOW SILLY IT SOUNDS.
4. Tag at least 10 friends (make me #11 so I can see your results).
5. Everyone has to do the same thing.
6. Have Fun!

IF SOMEONE SAYS 'ARE YOU OKAY' YOU SAY?
"The Way I Are" by Timbaland featuring Keri Hilson

Baby, it's alright now, you ain't gotta flaunt for me. I guess that's how it works. :D

HOW WOULD YOU DESCRIBE YOURSELF?
"Fukai Mori (Deep Forest)" by Do as Inifinity

We live our lives wandering to the ends of the earth, closing off the way back, we walk on for eternity. It was one of the ending theme songs of InuYasha that I super loved. I like this part of the song, well technically, this translated part of the song.

WHAT DO YOU LIKE IN A GUY/GIRL?
"Genie in a Bottle" by Christina Aguilera

I don't get why. Not a part of it. A guy who'll give me what I want? so lost...

HOW DO YOU FEEL TODAY?
"Feedback" by Janet Jackson

Never in my life will I ever talk like this. SCARY!

WHAT IS YOUR LIFE'S PURPOSE?
"Give it to Me" by Nelly Furtado featuring Timbaland and Justin Timberlake

Uhm. Demanding?

WHAT'S YOUR MOTTO?
"Bubbly" by Colbie Calliat

Bull's eye. Amazing. From the title itself. :- Need I say more? Bow.

WHAT DO YOUR FRIENDS THINK OF YOU?
"Since You've been Gone" by Kelly Clarkson

Oh NO! I love my friends! This is so wrong.

WHAT DO YOUR PARENTS THINK OF YOU?
"Pon de Replay" by Rihanna

My parents don't even know this song! Hahaha!

WHAT DO YOU THINK ABOUT VERY OFTEN?
"I Like that You Can't Take That Away from Me" from Take the Lead

Clueless again. I think about dancing all the time?

WHAT IS 2 + 2?
"Only Hope" by Mandy Moore

Depending on what this question meant, I can have a guess. But right now, I can't think of any.

WHAT DO YOU THINK OF YOUR BEST FRIEND?
"Fergalicious" by Fergie

Now that's funny! I don't have a best friend right now but I have a few super close friends. So they are fergalicious? LOL :

WHAT IS YOUR LIFE STORY?
"Your Guardian Angel" by Red Jumpsuit Apparatus

I will never let you fall. I'll stand up with you forever. I'll be there for you through it all. Even if saving you sends me to heaven. Now that's nice... I like it.

WHAT DO YOU WANT TO BE WHEN YOU GROW UP?
"Bartender" by T-pain featuring Akon

Funny! Literal answer. Good job. But no, I don't want to be a bartender.

WHAT DO YOU THINK WHEN YOU SEE THE PERSON YOU LIKE?
"You and Me" by Lifehouse

And it's you and me and all other people and I don't know why, I can't keep my eyes off of you. True. Enough said.

WHAT WILL YOU DANCE TO AT YOUR WEDDING?
"Ever Ever After" by Carrie Underwood

Super cute song! And yep, I do believe in happy endings. ;)

WHAT WILL THEY PLAY AT YOUR FUNERAL?
"Push Up on Me" by Rihanna

o.O No idea. I die then this is the song? Party on my funeral then?

WHAT IS YOUR HOBBY/INTEREST?
"Taking Over Me" by Evanescence

I never stop believing in people. Maybe that's my hobby. :)

WHAT IS YOUR BIGGEST FEAR?
"Wind It Up" by Gwen Stefani

I know he thinks you're fine and stuff But does he know how to wind you up? LOL

WHAT IS YOUR BIGGEST SECRET?
"Where Ever You Will Go" by the Calling

If I could, then I would I'll go wherever you will go. Maybe that's true. Maybe I would.

WHAT DO YOU WANT RIGHT NOW?
"Where is the Love?" Black Eyed Peas

'Kay. Love then.

WHAT DO YOU THINK OF YOUR FRIENDS?
"Far Away" by Nickleback

You know I love you. I have loved you all along. And I miss you, been far away for far too long. My high school friends -- I do miss you guys.

WHAT WILL YOU POST THIS AS?
"Minna no Kimochi (Every Heart)" by BOA

I guess we are all searching for something. ;)

Try it! :D

Nine Things

Say hello to 2009, people!

Hey, hey, hey! Another year has come for us to rock and just live, love and laugh. Okay, no need to remind me of my slacking and just pure laziness – I already know and somehow, sloth is a sin we all commit in varying degrees. So, now, on the dawn of the Year of the Ox, I am establishing the principles/virtues/goals that I want and I need in order to make 2009 a blast! Look, for seventeen years now , I’ve never done anything like this sort of “new year’s resolution” because I feel that coming up with one is too cliché. But then, I remembered that I’m a visual/active type of person – that I recall things better when I see them or when I write or perform the thing itself. So I guess I have no choice then? One note though, whatever I write here, doesn’t mean that I am making a promise or anything of that degree. I just want to give myself some direction since promises are of a whole different level that, based from experience, are not easily achieved by anyone at a whim. I wrote nine goals for the year two-double zero-NINE.

Well, what are we waiting for? Let’s roll…

1. ‘Diamonds are a girl’s best friend…’ – Nope, I’m not going to start wearing jewelries or fancy accessories when not necessary. I just used the said line from Moulin Rouge because of the materialism that it emits. I admit that I became very worldly during the past year that I casually spent what I have saved and I want to make things right. Yep, that’s my number one goal for 2009 since global economy is currently unstable (not that Philippine economy had been stable for the last 5 years, but anyway) and I’m still at a stage where I’m not that capable yet of earning much as I want to. Save, save, save!

2. Read up! – One thing that I regret about my 2008 was the fact that I had only read few books compared to the previous years. I can’t throw the “I’m busy” BS upon my self since reading is one of my passions. You can’t just ignore the things that make you happy because you’re busy – you find time, right? So for 2009, I don’t care if Dr. Gross wants me to read 57 pages of chemistry stuff. I’ll find time to read books that are not required for school though I’m not zooming in exclusively on books. I’d love to be in touch with magazines, journals, blogs, articles, anything as long as they’d provide me a different insight each day.

3. ‘Smile’ – People say that I’m always smiling. I’m not really sure about that but I think it’s not a bad thing to incorporate, ne? Before, I have this friend who dared me to smile at a random person everyday. I was kind of freaked out by the thought of doing such but when I looked at the idea on a different point of view, such practice would be great. Besides, everyone’s so busy nowadays that we forget how to be happy for the seemingly little yet more important things in this world. And by smiling, I mean sincerely, not some fake ‘say cheese!’ smile. You feel it when you mean it right?

4. Aim Higher – Okay, this is a weird one. In my entire life, I’ve always fought hard and played harder to get what I want but somewhere along the way, I found myself losing that fire. I want to rekindle that fire, feel everything that I do. I’m not only talking about academics but things in general. Nope, I won’t settle for anything less than what I want and I’m sure you’ll be there to help me.

5. Keep it Real – Another cliché but true line. I’m not a saint and I admit that I do lie. I did lie during 2008 and I know it’s wrong to deceive others and one ’s self. Even if there are so-called white lies, I want to keep things, somehow, clean. Another thing about this goal is about shutting my mouth when I won’t be able to say something good. Things will feel better and will be better if I aim to do those. I can feel it.

6. Miss Independent – Not that I’m not independent already but specifically, I want to be more mature and responsible of myself in terms of decision-making, chores, and other affairs. I think losing track of my planner affected my 2008 and I don’t want that to happen this year so I’ll be vigilant in terms of my awareness level regarding deadlines, events, exam dates and birthdays. Also, I want to incorporate organization into my life by doing things on time so I don’t find myself going nocturnal during hell weeks. It will need a lot of work but hey, I’m certain that everything will be worth it.

7. Love...loves…love! – Last year, I got so caught up on searching for romantic love that I almost forgot that love is not always equal to romance. For once, I resolve to focus on the people who already love me – family and friends, reciprocate the love and care they limitlessly give. I don’t need to look for romance desperately, it will just come at the right place and at the right time. Romantic love is not something we can rush for it’s just not easy to deal with. Besides, true love waits. :)

8. An apple a day keeps the doctor away -- I won't just say that I want to lose weight because people can lose weight while sacrificing their health. I just want to be away from any type of illness by trying to eat according to the food pyramid and doing simple exercises to keep my body moving. These small steps are more realistic than torturing my self to lose, say, 30 pounds before the year ends. Health cannot be bought so let's take care of it.

9. Live for the moment – Above all things, now is the most important. He is the only one who knows what’s going to happen next. Better make the most out of it since we can’t bring it back whenever we want to. And of course, offer each day to Him.

Well, that’s the bulk of it folks. I hope you’ll also be able to figure out what YOU want for yourself this year and make them happen.

Until my next entry! Have a rockin’ year ahead!

Never too late for Christmas

It's not December 25 anymore but hey, I still want to wish everyone a very merry Yuletide season and a blessed New Year ahead!

I know I haven't been updating much this year but I'll do my best to keep you guys posted on my quests and so on starting 2009. Let's enjoy the holidays while it lasts. I love you guys!

Y-V-E-S

Yep!

I had great time last night during your debut, YVES KRISTINE GARCIA! Advanced Happy 18th Birthday and more to come!

See you 'round!