Rattled.
I am so rattled right now. As in total panic mode! There are loads of things stuck in my mind right now namely college course to take, UPCAT, other college applications, college life in general, money, boys, family, health, social life, etcetera, etcetera, etcetera. It is so funny that I’m always thinking about stuff in the future and all that blah, blah.
Anyway, I’m still stuck in the middle of choosing between the course which interests me or the course which can give me money. Grarrr… Life is so unfair. There are so many things that I want to do yet there’s so little time. If only I’m so rich, I’d take all the courses I want! Hahahaha! As if that’s easy to do…
I’m so screwed up and wasted right now but not in drunkeness nor drugs though...
'Til my next un-wasted entry!
P.S. I think I need an emotion management class... LOL!
Thursday, April 26, 2007
Thursday, April 12, 2007
Spring Solstice by Ia Marie Donna B. Cruz
When teardrops fall from one’s eyes, hear silence
For the river of sadness opens once more
To pour out bitterness that runs down sore
A heart aching in a soul that weeps still
Falls to tiny pieces of memories
Of promises seemingly true before
Yet all broken in a sudden moment
To deal with previous mistakes left in doubt
As fate, seemingly playful, intervened
Leaving one in grief with all confusion
Yet Sorrow’s Course takes all the pain away
For memoirs of an anguished then leaves
As each tear drop goes by slowly with time
To heal obscure wounds of a lonely heart
-- Spring Solstice
by Ia Marie Donna B. Cruz
*Spring Solstice is the first real sonnet I wrote which was inspired by my heartache with my close guy friend. Fortunately, after this sad poem was written, we became friends once more but until now, I haven't thought of making him read this. In case you wanted to copy this, please always include my name and title properly as a sign of respect. This poem is pretty personal to me so I hope you'd understand.
For the river of sadness opens once more
To pour out bitterness that runs down sore
A heart aching in a soul that weeps still
Falls to tiny pieces of memories
Of promises seemingly true before
Yet all broken in a sudden moment
To deal with previous mistakes left in doubt
As fate, seemingly playful, intervened
Leaving one in grief with all confusion
Yet Sorrow’s Course takes all the pain away
For memoirs of an anguished then leaves
As each tear drop goes by slowly with time
To heal obscure wounds of a lonely heart
-- Spring Solstice
by Ia Marie Donna B. Cruz
*Spring Solstice is the first real sonnet I wrote which was inspired by my heartache with my close guy friend. Fortunately, after this sad poem was written, we became friends once more but until now, I haven't thought of making him read this. In case you wanted to copy this, please always include my name and title properly as a sign of respect. This poem is pretty personal to me so I hope you'd understand.
Wednesday, April 11, 2007
Hello Sunshine!
Summer’s officially in!
Finally, I can stretch and move around more freely after all the weeks of restrictions, commitments and scholastic stuff. I want to do loads of activities for this summer but I know I’ve got to set up my priorities so that I’ll have a set of accomplishments before the season ends, right? Haha. No wonder I already have things in mind that I would like to share with you though you might find some of them to be so-not-cool! :)
- Get refreshed with all my past lessons in order to pass all the colleges and universities
that I wanted to get into after high school.
- Overcome my not-so-good mannerisms like nail biting and frequent day dreaming
- Have enough sleep for the rest of the season
- Meet new people!
- Continue teaching Tagalog to some interested Westerners
- Do an emotional check and be more nice to people
- Lose some weight! This is a step to a healthier lifestyle!
- Do some charity works.
- Be more trusting to people who already asked for my forgiveness and I’ve already
forgiven. They should have earned it by now, right?
- Be more outspoken
- Read more novels for some amusement
- Hit the beach (or pool) at least twice
- And lastly (at least for now), express to connect! People won’t understand me if I won’t
myself be understood right?
I don’t really know what’s really gonna happen for the rest of my summer break but so far, so good. I mean, we all want to do a lot of things in our lives especially when we have some time to spare but when certain circumstances occur then, it’s up to us on how we’re gonna act to it. For now, I just want to perfectly fill up my application form for the University of the Philippines and maybe everything will follow afterwards.
I’ll keep you updated!
‘Til my next entry!
Finally, I can stretch and move around more freely after all the weeks of restrictions, commitments and scholastic stuff. I want to do loads of activities for this summer but I know I’ve got to set up my priorities so that I’ll have a set of accomplishments before the season ends, right? Haha. No wonder I already have things in mind that I would like to share with you though you might find some of them to be so-not-cool! :)
- Get refreshed with all my past lessons in order to pass all the colleges and universities
that I wanted to get into after high school.
- Overcome my not-so-good mannerisms like nail biting and frequent day dreaming
- Have enough sleep for the rest of the season
- Meet new people!
- Continue teaching Tagalog to some interested Westerners
- Do an emotional check and be more nice to people
- Lose some weight! This is a step to a healthier lifestyle!
- Do some charity works.
- Be more trusting to people who already asked for my forgiveness and I’ve already
forgiven. They should have earned it by now, right?
- Be more outspoken
- Read more novels for some amusement
- Hit the beach (or pool) at least twice
- And lastly (at least for now), express to connect! People won’t understand me if I won’t
myself be understood right?
I don’t really know what’s really gonna happen for the rest of my summer break but so far, so good. I mean, we all want to do a lot of things in our lives especially when we have some time to spare but when certain circumstances occur then, it’s up to us on how we’re gonna act to it. For now, I just want to perfectly fill up my application form for the University of the Philippines and maybe everything will follow afterwards.
I’ll keep you updated!
‘Til my next entry!
Monday, April 02, 2007
Foolin' Around and Spiritual Reverie
I totally can't believe that I missed posting some trips of mine for APRIL FOOLS' DAY! So sad...
Anyway, I just poured out my hyperactive laugh trip to my younger sister who wasn't very happy about it and until now had been throwing me dagger looks. Totally creepy I must say! If it wasn't for the 'breakdown moment' of my computer, I wouldn't be experiencing the piercing looks of my sister...
Well, as we made fun of ourselves and of others, April 1 also marked the start of the Holy Week for Catholics like me. This week is special for me since I came to my spiritual senses when I was thirteen years old. Despite the fact that other nations and Christian denominations do not celebrate this kind of reminiscent of the passion, death and ressurection of Christ, I happen to feel the stronger truth in my faith with the help of this week-long commemoration. Although this week have fall backs -- no computer. no television., I can say that 1 week against 47 other weeks of the year wherein I can freely use the gadgets and electronics I want is just a small sacrifice.
Can't wait for Easter!
'Til my next entry!
Anyway, I just poured out my hyperactive laugh trip to my younger sister who wasn't very happy about it and until now had been throwing me dagger looks. Totally creepy I must say! If it wasn't for the 'breakdown moment' of my computer, I wouldn't be experiencing the piercing looks of my sister...
Well, as we made fun of ourselves and of others, April 1 also marked the start of the Holy Week for Catholics like me. This week is special for me since I came to my spiritual senses when I was thirteen years old. Despite the fact that other nations and Christian denominations do not celebrate this kind of reminiscent of the passion, death and ressurection of Christ, I happen to feel the stronger truth in my faith with the help of this week-long commemoration. Although this week have fall backs -- no computer. no television., I can say that 1 week against 47 other weeks of the year wherein I can freely use the gadgets and electronics I want is just a small sacrifice.
Can't wait for Easter!
'Til my next entry!
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