the Get to Know Yourself Better quiz

While taking a break from completing my Chemistry pre-laboratory report, I stumbled upon this short quiz entitled Get to Know Yourself Better. It was imaginative but I'm not really sure about the results. I pasted them below.

Your view on yourself:
You are intelligent, honest and sweet. You are friendly to everybody and don't like conflict. Because you're so cheerful and fun people are naturally attracted to you and like to talk to you.
-> I like being happy but I'm not sure about the naturally attracted part.

The type of girlfriend/boyfriend you are looking for:
You are a true romantic. When you are in love, you will do anything and everything to keep your love true.
-> Hands down. TRUE.

Your readiness to commit to a relationship:
You are ready to commit as soon as you meet the right person. And you believe you will pretty much know as soon as you might that person.
-> This I'm not sure. Commitment is a VERY big thing.

The seriousness of your love:
Your have very sensible tactics when approaching the opposite sex. In many ways people find your straightforwardness attractive, so you will find yourself with plenty of dates.
-> Straight forward? Plently dates? How I wish! LOL

Your views on education:
You may not like to study but you have many practical ideas. You listen to your own instincts and tend to follow your heart, so you will probably end up with an unusual job.
-> But I like what I am doing right now.

The right job for you:
You have plenty of dream jobs but have little chance of doing any of them if you don't focus on something in particular. You need to choose something and go for it to be happy and achieve success.
-> Everything we do needs one's focus in order to succeed.

How do you view success:
You are afraid of failure and scared to have a go at the career you would like to have in case you don't succeed. Don't give up when you haven't yet even started! Be courageous.
-> I guess that's true. I still have a long way to go.

What are you most afraid of:
You are afraid of things that you cannot control. Sometimes you show your anger to cover up how you feel.
-> I'm not sure about the anger part.

Who is your true self:
You are mature, reasonable, honest and give good advice. People ask for your comments on all sorts of different issues. Sometimes you might find yourself in a dilemma when trapped with a problem, which your heart rather than your head needs to solve.
-> It would be nice if I'm really like this.

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So, what do you think?

Detachment of the Digital Baby

I just experienced a total disarray in my life -- the loss of Internet connection.

I lived the previous two weeks feeling much like a primitive in the modern era. I can't open my Yahoo! e-mail account, get music updates from imeem, browse through my friends' blogs, read up on the latest news, chat with my friends over meebo and read free manga scans at onemanga.com.

I simply missed out a lot of opportunities to complete my usual routine.

I have to admit that I'm quite ritualistic. I like doing things in order. Not that I'm OC or something but, such order gives me a better view of the things that I had accomplished so far. And part of my long-time everyday ritual is a date with my computer and the Internet. By removing the Internet from my life in a span of more than a week created a few knots and some kinks here and there in my holistic function.

Though I was still able to go on with my life like going to school, eat three times a day, talk to friends, etc. it wasn't just the same. It felt like something's missing. And I think that's a bit scary because I might have been becoming too dependent on the comforts brought about by technology.

I must admit that living in the absence of Internet, though a bit uncomfortable (due to communication services it provides which are essential to my lifestyle like IM, RSS feeds and e-mail), was somewhat fun. The experience of going organic and free from the constraints of the gadgets -- it’s so old school and yet I quite liked it.

If I have the time and opportunity, I'd like to detach myself voluntarily from the digital world for a short while, not just from the Internet but technology in general. The experience made me feel much more alive. Hopefully, when I immerse myself in such unplugged lifestyle, I should have settled all my responsibilities that require the aid of modern-age technology.

I am a digital baby.

And we live in a digital age.

Yet it took me such a long time to realize that fact.

Presidential Election 2010

Are you aware that next year, the Presidential Election will be held and some politicians are already implicitly campaigning for it?

Do you want to read a piece of my mind on this?

Just drop by Piece of Perspective and go through Ready to Win: Politicians Get on a Head-on Battle of Ads.

And tell me what do YOU think.

Toddles!

Memories from Staircases

If you had been reading my blog since my high school days, you'll probably know what the term starfish signifies. And with what I am to share later in this entry, I feel that it is apt to look back and reminisce what I call the starfish affair.

High school sophomore year was a very eventful and significant year. If every year of my life would be a dynasty, I would call my sophomore year The Golden Age. I won't elaborate on how perfect everything seemed for me back then but rather, I'll zoom into one dimension of that so-called perfection -- starfish.

I met a guy who literally took my breath. The first time I met him, I appeared klutzy for mistaking his identity. Well, I got distracted by everything about him. He had this aura of mystery, confidence and intellect. His cute smile was just a compliment to his persona. Yes, I was definitely smitten. And if I am to be honest, I am more than smitten. And that made me feel really good throughout the year. Everytime I see him, it was enough to make me smile so wide.

I really fell so hard for him that I was very shattered when I heard that he's leaving. Because of that, I deliberated on whether I should tell him how I feel for him. Even if I knew that there's only 1% chance that he'll reciprocate, I just want to tell him my feelings just so he knows that he's special. It took me so long to decide.

I told him.

Guess what?

He politely told me that he appreciates how I feel for him and even said 'thank you'. But, he can't return those feelings due to a couple of reasons. I understand him. After an hour of talking, I thanked him for listening. I calmly walked away from him and when I reached the nearest corner, I dashed immediately.

My friends were waiting for me. When I reached them, I tried to smile but I just couldn't hide my true feelings. Right then and there, on the middle of the staircase, I cried my heart out.

It hurt that he rejected me.
I cried.
He thought I was just having a crush on him.
I cried.
He was leaving.
I cried.
I love him.
I cried.

For about two hours, I was just crying in the arms of my friends, regardless of the stares I got. He made me feel so many beautiful emotions. He made me feel good about myself. I did not cry so much just because he rejected me. I mourned for the fact that he was leaving. I was contented with admiring him from afar.

When I stopped crying, I realized how many friends I have. They were there -- worrying about me. If I had more tears to cry, I might have cried again. That very moment made me feel so loved. Might the love be platonic, my friends made me feel better because of their concern.

And all these things happened on a staircase.

I remembered this episode in my life just because I recently fell down the staircase. Yes, I had a terrible sprain due to a torn ligament but I'm now better for only a few more purple blotches remain on my foot's skin. I thank my friends for supporting me on this one too, especially XX2. Your patience with my slow pace during the previous weeks means a lot to me.

I am now healing. I am now healed.

I loved him.
And now, I smile.

I might be over him but I know that I'll always have a space for him in my heart...

That is until I find the man for me.