Transparency of the Mind

Growing up in an atmosphere where achievements are thought to be wealth and expectations are often high, I became a strong person well enough to surpass academic and real life challenges.

With a span of nine years and counting, I can say that I do well enough in most of my activities and endeavors. Despite such fact, I don’t prefer calling myself as an achiever but rather, a worker. Contrary to what most of my fellows think, I am no genius. I am not the type who encloses my self to academic issues nor do I only converse with people who can calculate the square root of 9,572 mentally or one who could recount vividly the history of the Roman Empire. In reality, I’m quite a shallow person who finds joy in eating a scoop of Double Dutch-flavored ice cream once a week and is amused by watching The Simpsons.

I am quite open with the fact that I’m not very gifted in a certain area of learning but, I do know that I am blessed with certain talents I use in different ways at my advantage. Although I am not a soloist, I can hit high notes well enough as a member of the school chorale. I may not be the best news writer within the school paper organization but I take it to heart that I do my duty well in terms of delivering information and searching for the truth. My ideas might not be always the best for all yet I see my importance as an individual capable of leading. As a person, I know that each one is given distinctive abilities to match his personality; it’s just up to us to see it. And on my part, I know that I’m so far successful in terms of developing and turning my undersized talents into giant assets to reach my stars.

Though many are amazed with geniuses, I still admire people who strive hard to be where they are now because I see myself in them. Workers, in many different figurative meanings, have the best experience in life as they’ve gone through hardships and trials before eventually fulfilling the goals they want to meet. As I am a worker of my own, my journey of becoming the person I am right now is the best description of who I am.

Toughened by time, this is who I am -- a diamond with a charcoal façade.

Stitchin' Prom Patchwork

A lot of people of my senior are fond of reminiscing about their promenade experience. Some of them fondly called it in different names like “Prom”, “Soiree”, etc. yet the essence remains the same.

Before I wrote this entry, I pondered on the connection of the events during own promenade. It has been about a month and a half since the prom night and it is just now that i realize how different and surreal that experience was. As I have written on my previous entry, I really had a hard time “judging” my prom experience but now, I’m ready to fully narrate my night as a princess. :)

At first, the sound of the word “prom” made my ears cringe in fear. Apparently, this is because I’m just your typical, top-of-the-books high school student and I personally thought that “prom” is another way of revealing my “uncoolness”. Haha!

Well, I can’t really say that I’m totally closed to the idea of a prom. In fact, my parents were more excited of that fact that I’m gonna have my prom wherein they can dress me up in a lady-like fashion and I can’t say more about that.

The one of the highlights of the “Juniors’ Prom ‘07” is the inter-section ballroom dancing presentation wherein my class danced variations of Rumba, Waltz, Mambo and Jive. Unfortunately for my part, my partner has two left feet and is not THAT willing to dance well during practices if it wasn’t for the persuasion of some of my boy buds. I’m so lucky to have those guys around. :)

Coolness will be the word I want to use for my dress though at first, I thought of it to be very over decorated and too extravagant for the occasion. During the prom night, I donned a purple with lavender overlay corset style dress with intricate beadwork and embroidery. I decided to go easy on the accessories with a simple necklace with a pearl, pearl earrings and a moon-charmed bracelet. In response to this year’s prom theme which is “Royalty”, the girls were asked to wear tiaras. My tiara was, in fact, my favorite part of my ensemble because of the “princessy feeling” it gave me. I also loved my gold pouch bag that gave my look a bit “retro” effect.

Naturally, my hair is unruly and wavy that’s why I always wear it upswept to keep it out of my way during busy schooldays. But for the prom, I originally wanted it to be properly curled like Shakira’s former hairstyle until my mom suggested that I’d look “prettier” (gosh, I hate that word!) if I’d just straighten my hair temporarily and let it down for just one night. Well, mom knows best (so cliché) and my hair became straight, at least for that day.

February 15, 2007 – the big event came and when I stepped into the campus, all I can see is a sea of willowy skirts and tuxedoes. I felt like a different person because I’m not the type who always grooms every hour during regular days. When I came to the event, I received a lot of “OMG! Is that you?”, “You look so cool!”, “Ang ganda mo ngayon ah!” from both girls and guys, to which I don’t know how to react aside from smiling at them.

Honestly, I was really feeling queasy that day because the day before the prom, February 14, 2007 (Valentine’s Day), I had a fight with my best boy bud and I really feel bad about it. Whenever I see him looking at me, I really divert my eyes from him. I remained acting that way even during my speech for the bequeathal of the book from Ate Jela to me though only my close friends noticed the difference which is good. I don’t want to catch the gossip drift of my 353 batch mates, don’t I?

The surprise of this year’s prom was the Candy and Pond’s Prom Tour 2007 wherein they gave away freebies and picture taking sessions. I never dreamed of becoming the prom queen so I’ll skip this part though, I’m happy for my batch’s prom queen, Luisa. Aside from the prom queen, Candy and Pond’s get to choose their own Candy and Pond’s Princess in the person of my batch mate, Zyrene. And I must say that those gals deserve the titles they’ve got that night.

After the program, it’s chow time by Albergus. The food was really good though the servings were really large for me to consume easily. My favorite part there was the chocolate fountain. It brings back childhood! Coolness!

Not long after the dining hour, the music has been pumped up and people started flooding the dance floor. My first dance was one of my boy buds who eerily asked me to be his first dance a month before the prom. Actually, three days before the prom, I had in mind the list of guys from every section who I want to dance with me. Apparently, only three of them did dance with me which was really funny though! They’re like untouchables, in a positive sense, for me! After my sixth dance, my best boy bud sat beside me and asked for forgiveness. I don’t know but I’m always pardoning him so easily. I agreed to dance with him though he looked like a huge wall, not even moving an inch. I so want to bonk him in the head for ruining my valentine’s day! All in all, I had exactly eighteen guys who danced with me, most of them classmates and boy buds and the “dream guys”. I won’t include their names here because if I do so, I will certainly catch the gossip drift and it’s the end of my life!

III - De Jesus with Teacher Cris

Just like any other fairy tale, Juniors' Prom ended at Midnight. And all went back to normal once more. I am not really regretting the fact that I attended the prom. It may not be the best night of my life but I sure had a lot of rare experiences here. Well, being a lady doesn’t always equal fancy dresses and accessories. It’s on how you carry your self with poise and confidence. Maybe Seniors’ Prom is an event to look forward to?

So much for promenades!

‘Til my next entry!

Revival

If I am not mistaken, I am quite idle from blogging since late February. Sigh. I'm such a sloth. Hahaha!

Apparently, I had a lot of things going on this March ranging from academics to organizations to performances. As much as I wanted to update frequently, late nights are quite getting on my eyes already. Can't you see that it's so puffy already?

To give you all an insight of my life, first things first. Actually, the Final Exams wrecked my brain cells for the last time for my Junior year. Yikes, I can't believe that I'm soon off to college after graduation... Anyway, I'm quite contented with my self for I think that I did enough to achieve the academic status I aimed for. Thank God for His guidance!

My school year officially ended last March 20, 2007 yet my vacation is just starting tonight due to the rigorous vocal training of the Coro San Antonio for the recently concluded Graduation Ceremonies. I have to admit that I'm really going to miss this year's batch of the Coro San Antonio...

And let's not forget to mention that my heart has been going through an active stage.. I don't know but friendship is really fond of match-making in my life.

Anyway, 'til my next entry! :)