Damaged Perfection

When I stepped inside our house, half of my kawaii outfit for today is dripping wet, my right-sided bun is disheveled, my blue bag looks watery. In short, I got soaked.

Corny…

Setting that aside, I’m so happy today!

Though I went to my review class this morning, afterwards, I got the chance to do one of my favorite hobbies – strolling.

(What?! Strolling?! Is that even a hobby?!) Well, I’m sorry for having this kind of inclination! (JOKE!)

You see, I can feel serenity overflowing me when ever I go to a populated place and do nothing aside from walking or sitting on a comfortable spot while watching people go about their thing or sometimes, read a book. Before, when I’m not that busy, I used to go to probably the mall or the nearby park and take a stroll every Saturday, taking it like some sort of freedom from all the engagements and worries that I have. I don’t know but I love doing this. Alone or not, it feels great especially now that I haven’t done this for like 3 months.

I’M GREAT!

Well, not totally… someone’s been at my throat for quite sometime already. You know the feeling that you are trying to be respectable and natural and all but a certain person makes you feel so wrong and worthless. I’m not having an emotional misfit here but the thing is, the person I’m talking about is one of my teachers. Yeah… talk about feeling so inferior. Whenever I speak in his class, I don’t know if he’s intentionally making me feel that I’m wrong when he’s just asking for an opinion. (There, I gave it away.) I admit that I’m not really that good in his subject but it doesn’t mean that he has to belittle me. For years, all that I have right now is all because of hard work and now, I can’t believe that he’s doing this to me. Is he challenging me or he just hates me? All the intellectual confidence I have seemed to vamoose whenever he’s in the room. He doesn’t even try to be nice. I hate power trips. I want to talk to him about this but I’m having second thoughts. Hello, he’s like my teacher and half of my Senior year depends on the numbers he’s gonna write on my report card. I fear that he’s not even open-minded about this kind of stuff. What a pain…

So many circumstances, so little time. Illogical teacher, upcoming tests, emotional friends, insensitive classmates, approaching competitions, nosy mother, unstable emotions, restless mind, name it. I need a break. Cut me some slack please… so far, my life’s a bit complicated.

Well, the rain has stopped and I’m dried now. I’m in desperate need of sleep so I got to zoom to my bed. You take a rest too. How can a perfect day feel so imperfect?

Sigh…

Pray for me. Love you!

Randomness

With five days long with no school, I still can't believe that there are many things I still have t accomplish. Right now, I'm just skipping out of doing my Visual Basic Project. Grarr... it took me almost half a day to finish it. I'm such a slow worker.

Anyway, I've been a Senior student for approximately 3 months and I'm still suprised that I'm already at Senior high school. Get what I mean? Well, I know you don't so let's not dwell much about that. Maybe I'm still adjusting (duh, it's been three months, who am I kidding?). And I really get a bit scared when the adults around me start talking about what's gonna happen after 6 - 7 months later. Don't you think we should all focus on the PRESENT? Sigh. You see, I still have to pass my NCAE and my UPCAT and ACET and USTET and other college tests and my periodical examinations and of course, my Senior year. I want to enjoy the last few months of high school because there only one high school life. Gosh, I'm being too sentimental right now. Is it the rain that's gotten into me?

Anyway, who cares? Hahaha!

'Til my next post!

Post Headaches and Senseless Talks

Right now, I’m experiencing the last of the post-exam headache I had earlier.

Gosh, I didn’t expect it to be that rigorous. Five hours straight and I’m not even comfortable in my seat! Well, at least the venue’s air-conditioned. I’m not sure if I did well. I think I did what I can. I mean, I know I’m not so good in math but I tried my best to apply the principles I know. After all, what’s done is done. All I can do now is pray and wait. And yeah, I forgot, I’d still be taking my ACET (Ateneo College Entrance Test) by early September so I still need to prepare for it. So maybe, while I wait for my UPCAT results, I’d study once more. Is anyone there willing to teach me high school math? Honestly, I think I need a math tutor.

Anyway, I don’t think I’m making sense here. You see, there’s this friend-love feud that happened this July. Yeah, you read it right. Don’t get to surprised you meanie! I don’t know if it’s over but I still won’t tell you the details here. But if you really want to know…I’ll think about it. Duh, I may sound cheery and blah here, that incident hurt me so much. What the heck is going on?! Sorry, I’m going so insane right now. So that's the reason why I'm not really able to update during the past month. Sorry peeps.

So much for that. I’ve got to sign off for now. Have to wake up early tomorrow and I need to shake off this left over headache. Well, pray that I’d be writing more of my adventures soon.

‘Til my next entry!

Butterflies inside my head

Whew! It’s been a while since I updated…ages ago?

(*_*)? Did you notice that a number of my entries start with that effing line? Sheesh! Nuff said! Teehee!

After spending my precious summer vacation brooding over the future college life, the first test is about to come – UPCAT (University of the Philippines College Admission Test). And this University of the Philippines is so prestigious and I want to study Medicine here. Honestly, I’M SCARED AND NERVOUS! And it’s freaking me out! (See the butterflies fluttering inside my stomach?) I so want to get into this university but I’m not sure if I’m that prepared…duh, I suck in mathematics and I’m so-so in science. Anyway, I know I studied. I’ve been studying my whole twelve years! I can do this! Pray for me! I hope to do my best!

I’ll update soon if I get over the pre-test and post-test worries… please support me.

‘Till next update! Love you! Post your comments ok?