As I write this entry, I am currently taking a break from writing my seventh pre laboratory report for chemistry.
Ironic, right? I'm writing to break away from writing.
But see, there's a subtle difference, well, a big difference that is. This entry is non-formal and just a way to release negativity from my mind and soul -- away from the demands of the norm. How I love this times when there's a chance to unwind even just for a while. I seem shallow, yes. But that's the beauty of keeping everything real, there's no need to use fanciful words just to convey a message and appear smart in front of others.
Though it's been a while since I last posted a real entry, I want to celebrate this day, this hour, this minute, this moment as blessing. When was the last time you've appreciated the serenity and opportunity of simply living -- without the hassles and bustles of human worries? Now is a dreat opportunity to just stop worrying and just breathe easily and say 'I feel alive.' with a tranquil feeling within.
With the way our world has been going, we still have to return to the superficial standards of the society. But let's not forget to give our souls some time to take any pressure off and just feel serenity. That's how we can live.
As I conclude this sharing, I too am about to return to my usual routine in accordance to the norms but I keep in my mind and heart what my soul needs once in a while.
Sweetness,
Allyne
Sunday, July 27, 2008
Sunday, July 06, 2008
Saturday, July 05, 2008
results of a nanosecond encounter
The following entry was originally hand-written on a typical sheet of notebook paper. The author, who was feeling unusually sensitive that day, felt a heavy emotion radiating from a person she passed by while browsing through the vast collection of books on the third floor of the Rizal Library Annex. She thought that the feeling would go away but she found out that she can't concetrae on answering her ultra-long chemistry problem set that she scribbled the feeling away on the sheet that was supposed to be containing singnificant figures and dimensional analysis solutions. Everything here is same as the original though a few parts were removed.
June 13, 2008 (11:28 AM)
I saw a boy.
Doning a black shirt, sadness radiates from him towards me as I accidentally passed by him.
I know him.
He was quite illustrious in our lot and for many people, that fame would suffice that empty space in their hearts. When I saw his dull, dark eyes, I became affected. He seems to have it all – at a stranger's point-of-view that is.But not everyone sees the troubles his downcast eyes mirror.
In those seconds, when we just stood in front of each other in between the tall bookshelves of the library, I understood bits of how he feels. Maybe if that boy (whom others already see as a man) will be able to read this small reflection of mine, he might accuse me of intruding his privacy or probably being judgmental towards his actions and preferences. I'd wilingly take those accusations from him without hard feelings because indeed, what I have just written were all based on my perspective.
But you see, this is the second time we saw each other (in the similar manner). I don't expect him to remember me because I, myself, have almost forgotten that I was in the same testing room as him during a foreign standardized testing exam. After this recent encounter, everything came back to my memory.
His eyes are still the same.
His unhappy-looking eyes must have shared the melancholy feeling unto me for I can't help but remember those eyes. Writing everythig down is just my way of expressing the degree his sadness has affected me. He just stood there for a second and made his way past me – just like that. But it really racked my thoughts and my emotions.
When we parted ways, I wanted to look back and smile at him, assure him that there are still people who feel and think for others.
But he's already gone.
Hopefully, next time.
June 13, 2008 (11:28 AM)
I saw a boy.
Doning a black shirt, sadness radiates from him towards me as I accidentally passed by him.
I know him.
He was quite illustrious in our lot and for many people, that fame would suffice that empty space in their hearts. When I saw his dull, dark eyes, I became affected. He seems to have it all – at a stranger's point-of-view that is.But not everyone sees the troubles his downcast eyes mirror.
In those seconds, when we just stood in front of each other in between the tall bookshelves of the library, I understood bits of how he feels. Maybe if that boy (whom others already see as a man) will be able to read this small reflection of mine, he might accuse me of intruding his privacy or probably being judgmental towards his actions and preferences. I'd wilingly take those accusations from him without hard feelings because indeed, what I have just written were all based on my perspective.
But you see, this is the second time we saw each other (in the similar manner). I don't expect him to remember me because I, myself, have almost forgotten that I was in the same testing room as him during a foreign standardized testing exam. After this recent encounter, everything came back to my memory.
His eyes are still the same.
His unhappy-looking eyes must have shared the melancholy feeling unto me for I can't help but remember those eyes. Writing everythig down is just my way of expressing the degree his sadness has affected me. He just stood there for a second and made his way past me – just like that. But it really racked my thoughts and my emotions.
When we parted ways, I wanted to look back and smile at him, assure him that there are still people who feel and think for others.
But he's already gone.
Hopefully, next time.
A Plunge on Blue and White
Four weeks.
Enough vanity and let's get straight to details.
Yep, gone are the days of petty worries and childish wants – university is a step closer to reality. But of course, university life is where the fun starts especially when you become an official Atenean. I can hear you thinking along the lines of 'akala ko ba UP ka?' but the whole UP-turned-Ateneo chapter in my life made me realize something very important – the great things happen unexpectedly. Okay, so many people think that Ateneans are coñio, rich, snob and all other upper society stereotypes that are too many to think of, let alone type here. SO NOT TRUE. You won't enjoy college life if you fill your head with silly perceptions without first-hand basis. I won't deny that before finally deciding on Ateneo, the idea of 'being left-out' also bothered me but when I thought about it, I was like, 'what the hell am I worrying about?'. And now, I enjoy each day with 24 new friends. Making new friends is one great way to enjoy college. Check out XX2's block pics during the OrSem. But we were not complete here. We are 25 in our block but here we are only 24 because the other person was still residing in the 'most famous house in Philippine television'.
Speaking of friends, one of the reasons whyI wasn't able to write down anything for most of June is because of the continuous set of activities for freshmen that robbed me most of my energy. From the registration to course selection, to OrSem, everything is by the students for the students and that factor really makes things more interesting. FYI, the term 'course' is equal to what we call 'subjects' back in high school in contrast to the popular context when people ask college students 'anong course mo?' and expect an answer like 'bs psych po or nursing po'. The previous sentence was so out of topic and not to mention boring but hey, it's a piece of information worth knowing.
So I'm a BS Health Sciences (HSc) major. And you are like 'anu yun?' in your head. Well, it's not your typical pre-med school degree program – it's Chemistry-intensive coupled with advanced mathematics. Nope, people here are not nerds. Okay, so maybe we are a little but come on, everyone has their own streak of “nerdness”. Besides, Hsc peeps are geared towards med school as we lack doctors in our country, swear. Enough of that blah talk about the future. Now is much important.
New environment calls for changes and adjustments. I'll admit that I'm still adjusting but think about this: when it's your first time doing something or going somewhere, remember that you're not the only one who's having the 'first-day blues', everybody feels that too from time to time. But don't go all the way at once since you are not yet sure of what's to come. Take it one at a time.
I'm sure you are about to hunt me down if I still won't update this time. Teehee!
Enough vanity and let's get straight to details.
Not updating for more than a month is totally not me. Everyone who's been with me through my four-year blogging stint knows how I just type the words I can think of and share it, whether it is about the funny-looking statue I passed by somewhere, the trip I had with my family, school work overload or simply random thoughts that I just want to share and/or vent. To think that I survived not accounting anything in this blog, the world must be upside down! Since the world is not upside-down (well, the last time I checked, that is), there is a very good reason behind my hiatus from the blog-sphere and it comes in two words – university life.
Yep, gone are the days of petty worries and childish wants – university is a step closer to reality. But of course, university life is where the fun starts especially when you become an official Atenean. I can hear you thinking along the lines of 'akala ko ba UP ka?' but the whole UP-turned-Ateneo chapter in my life made me realize something very important – the great things happen unexpectedly. Okay, so many people think that Ateneans are coñio, rich, snob and all other upper society stereotypes that are too many to think of, let alone type here. SO NOT TRUE. You won't enjoy college life if you fill your head with silly perceptions without first-hand basis. I won't deny that before finally deciding on Ateneo, the idea of 'being left-out' also bothered me but when I thought about it, I was like, 'what the hell am I worrying about?'. And now, I enjoy each day with 24 new friends. Making new friends is one great way to enjoy college. Check out XX2's block pics during the OrSem. But we were not complete here. We are 25 in our block but here we are only 24 because the other person was still residing in the 'most famous house in Philippine television'.
Speaking of friends, one of the reasons whyI wasn't able to write down anything for most of June is because of the continuous set of activities for freshmen that robbed me most of my energy. From the registration to course selection, to OrSem, everything is by the students for the students and that factor really makes things more interesting. FYI, the term 'course' is equal to what we call 'subjects' back in high school in contrast to the popular context when people ask college students 'anong course mo?' and expect an answer like 'bs psych po or nursing po'. The previous sentence was so out of topic and not to mention boring but hey, it's a piece of information worth knowing.So I'm a BS Health Sciences (HSc) major. And you are like 'anu yun?' in your head. Well, it's not your typical pre-med school degree program – it's Chemistry-intensive coupled with advanced mathematics. Nope, people here are not nerds. Okay, so maybe we are a little but come on, everyone has their own streak of “nerdness”. Besides, Hsc peeps are geared towards med school as we lack doctors in our country, swear. Enough of that blah talk about the future. Now is much important.
New environment calls for changes and adjustments. I'll admit that I'm still adjusting but think about this: when it's your first time doing something or going somewhere, remember that you're not the only one who's having the 'first-day blues', everybody feels that too from time to time. But don't go all the way at once since you are not yet sure of what's to come. Take it one at a time.
I remembered something. Tomorrow is the opening of season 71 of UAAP wherein the first basketball game is between Ateneo and La Salle. I wanted to watch but it's a Sunday and besides, I don't have tickets for the game. I'll probably just watch the game on tv and see how Ateneans (and La Salle too)chant school spirit away.
I'm now past the 'wow-everything-is-so-new-to-me' stage so I guess you'll be seeing/viewing me more often from now on and hopefully, I'll be back to my regular blog frequency.
Sweetness,
Allyne
Allyne
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