Ahh… what a wonderful day! I just got a dose of Naruto the Movie and it’s SOOO Fantastic!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I just can’t help but be on sugar high! Uhhh… please help me!
Anyway, back to normal, I had a plain yet sentimental day at school today. Seeing my grades slapped at my face, gazing at him from afar, classmates and batchmates passing by the corridors, teachers busy computing and checking our grades, people giving me weird looks, guys teasing me, teachers giving off instructions, girls giggling over guys, guys gossiping about girls, and of course, him just being himself… Sigh... When will he ever open up? And why does he not? Is he that dense not to notice me? Well, I think he already do know ‘bout me lovin’ him. And I believe, it’s freaking him out!!!
How do I know? Well, it’s not quite hard not to think that it’s possible. He is obviously a super genius guy so I believe that it would only take him one neuron to process the fact that I like him because of my “probably” weird actions towards him. No kidding. He’s a real dude and these past few days, he’s acting really weird. Why weird? Well, I can almost recite his schedule during school days and I also notice his usual actions during class hours. Is he my classmate? Nah, he’s not but how can I actually manage to see his routines? Well, I have my own ways and I’m not gonna share! J Anyway, here are some reasons why I can say that he’s already noticing my feelings for him:
He does not look at me in the eye anymore.
He does not sit on his usual place in that certain classroom anymore.
His best friend does not talk to me anymore.
He does not return my greetings anymore like before.
He does not smile at me anymore every time we see each other at the hallways.
He ignored me twice already.
He was quite weird at me (though he really is already weird enough) these past few days.
He does not even look at me or acknowledge me whenever we meet. (He did acknowledge me yesterday but still…)
His best friend does not tease me anymore and I miss it already.
And lastly, he barely make me see him.
Sigh… poor me. But anyway, I still know that I will survive because I still believe that I’ll keep him close to my heart. He’s the only happiness underneath all the stuff happening at school that makes me loose my head upon numbers… Till next time!
See ya when I see ya! – Hime Yume
Friday, January 06, 2006
Thursday, January 05, 2006
Twirling Kaleidoscope
There are so many things that have passed my every day that is quite essential for me in order to be able to say that my day is already satisfactory. As for today, it had been a very eventful day for me, filled with so many predicaments but there are still some events that have been quite unexpected yet left warmth in my heart.
Love is the one I’m referring to when I said warmth in my heart. Yes, of course, I’m also human. I also feel those emotions that you could describe as very mushy or disgusting. Well, I also have a certain person who made my heart flutter every time I see him and at the same time, break my heart into pieces every time I remember that I can never have him. It’s sad but the moment he told me earlier that he appreciates my gift for him this Christmas with all those smiles he gives out unusually, I couldn’t help but melt inside. Sigh. If only…
Anyway, I just find it depressing when I found out that I got pretty low grades. Yeah. The last time I wrote that I got low grades yet now, I’m still groaning about it. Yes, I’m quite disappointed with my self because I got low grades in my minor subjects which are also known as electives. Well, I keep telling my self to be excellent in these fields because they can help a lot in order for me to maintain my standards yet with all these stupid efforts, I still got low grades… sigh. If only I could turn back time.
Well, there was a heart-breaking news that my class had heard from one of our most-loved teachers. My favorite subject, Social Studies, with our lovable instructor is going to be my most loathed subject if the news would be confirmed. Wanna know why? It’s because, our teacher is going to be replaced by some loony pervert of a monster (I’m referring to the other Social Studies teacher of our level)!!! I’m not lying but the other teacher is a total PERVERT and he’s got favoritism, meaning if you’re a boy, ha, you lose! Gosh, I love my Social Studies teacher because he’s really the best of the best! I can’t have him being replaced yet what can I do? Well, as for my part, I wanted to make the most out of my favorite subject so whenever there are instances that I would need his assistance in relation to our subject because the substitute teacher is being stupid and useless, I wouldn’t hesitate in doing so.
So for now, I’ll stick to my usual happy sugar high stage and feel the warmth that reigns in my heart for I know that these challenges that I’m whining about today is going to be different tomorrow.
TTFN!
See ya When I See ya! - Hime Yume
Love is the one I’m referring to when I said warmth in my heart. Yes, of course, I’m also human. I also feel those emotions that you could describe as very mushy or disgusting. Well, I also have a certain person who made my heart flutter every time I see him and at the same time, break my heart into pieces every time I remember that I can never have him. It’s sad but the moment he told me earlier that he appreciates my gift for him this Christmas with all those smiles he gives out unusually, I couldn’t help but melt inside. Sigh. If only…
Anyway, I just find it depressing when I found out that I got pretty low grades. Yeah. The last time I wrote that I got low grades yet now, I’m still groaning about it. Yes, I’m quite disappointed with my self because I got low grades in my minor subjects which are also known as electives. Well, I keep telling my self to be excellent in these fields because they can help a lot in order for me to maintain my standards yet with all these stupid efforts, I still got low grades… sigh. If only I could turn back time.
Well, there was a heart-breaking news that my class had heard from one of our most-loved teachers. My favorite subject, Social Studies, with our lovable instructor is going to be my most loathed subject if the news would be confirmed. Wanna know why? It’s because, our teacher is going to be replaced by some loony pervert of a monster (I’m referring to the other Social Studies teacher of our level)!!! I’m not lying but the other teacher is a total PERVERT and he’s got favoritism, meaning if you’re a boy, ha, you lose! Gosh, I love my Social Studies teacher because he’s really the best of the best! I can’t have him being replaced yet what can I do? Well, as for my part, I wanted to make the most out of my favorite subject so whenever there are instances that I would need his assistance in relation to our subject because the substitute teacher is being stupid and useless, I wouldn’t hesitate in doing so.
So for now, I’ll stick to my usual happy sugar high stage and feel the warmth that reigns in my heart for I know that these challenges that I’m whining about today is going to be different tomorrow.
TTFN!
See ya When I See ya! - Hime Yume
Wednesday, January 04, 2006
New year, new frustrations
Hello everyone! It’s been a long time since I last updated this blog of mine. Well, before everything else, I want to greet all of you a Happy New Year!
School’s up again and I’m sort of baffled for some of our tests grades were shown to us already and I did get the shock of my life for I got pretty low grades in some of my major subjects. I know I did pass the line but it wasn’t enough for me. Basically, a part of me is still having a hard time keeping up with my supposed to be daily routine during school days is because I almost spent my holidays either in front of my computer and television or hanging out at near by centers.
Well, I know that it’s kinda hard to strive for something that we want to have. Like for my grades, my other classmen would just react as if I’m bragging but really, it’s depressing not to get what you really want for satisfaction. Honestly, i've never been this depressed for my grades ever since but i can't help it. Probably because of monsters in my head or my anime fantasies these holidays...
I admit that these Christmas vacation, I got the freedom to be lazy and watch programs all the time or surf the internet all day long but probably, after those leisure time, I still came back to my reality where people strive to be on top and just feel pressure.
In spite of all these little difficulties that I’m sure we’ve all been to, I still believe that being in high school is a time of our lives and we have to enjoy every bits of it coz in time, these parts of our lives will be the ones we wanted to remember from our little past.
School’s up again and I’m sort of baffled for some of our tests grades were shown to us already and I did get the shock of my life for I got pretty low grades in some of my major subjects. I know I did pass the line but it wasn’t enough for me. Basically, a part of me is still having a hard time keeping up with my supposed to be daily routine during school days is because I almost spent my holidays either in front of my computer and television or hanging out at near by centers.
Well, I know that it’s kinda hard to strive for something that we want to have. Like for my grades, my other classmen would just react as if I’m bragging but really, it’s depressing not to get what you really want for satisfaction. Honestly, i've never been this depressed for my grades ever since but i can't help it. Probably because of monsters in my head or my anime fantasies these holidays...
I admit that these Christmas vacation, I got the freedom to be lazy and watch programs all the time or surf the internet all day long but probably, after those leisure time, I still came back to my reality where people strive to be on top and just feel pressure.
In spite of all these little difficulties that I’m sure we’ve all been to, I still believe that being in high school is a time of our lives and we have to enjoy every bits of it coz in time, these parts of our lives will be the ones we wanted to remember from our little past.
See ya when I see ya!
Hime Yume
PS.
Are there any Japanese speaking people around Blogger.com who is/are willing to kinda teach me some basics? Well, I really need help when it comes to my communication skills involving this language. It's quite a requirement for me to learn something out of this language before I step to Junior high next year... sigh... Any help would be really apprecieated! :) I just can't attend classes because school hours is long
Sunday, November 27, 2005
How come when it comes to loving someone, i always lose? I can catch up with academics, sports, poetry and essay writings, contest, singing, dancing and others but really, i'm not really good in loving people, well, not really people. I meant guys.
Yeah, yeah, i know. Love is insane. But what can i do? I really insane especially when i get to see him! gosh. I feel stupid. I suppose i need a psychologist! hahaha! tata for now!
Yeah, yeah, i know. Love is insane. But what can i do? I really insane especially when i get to see him! gosh. I feel stupid. I suppose i need a psychologist! hahaha! tata for now!
Friday, November 18, 2005
how to heal my breaking heart?
I feel so stupid knowing that the person i truly love can't love me back the way i love him. Eversince the day I realized that i am truly loving him, i can't stop my self from thinking of him. Sometimes, my friends call me foolish for i am not blind to the fact that i'm just any other girl out there yet, i continue to admire him from a distant. Even i know how much it hurts, i'm ready to drink it all in, just to satisfy my hearts yearning.
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